On Taking Action & Dying Young.
I ache to live an exuberant life. One filled with crazy stories of youthful thrills, love and spontaneous adventures. I dream that my deathbed memories will supersede childhood fairy tales. At the same time I want to impact those around me. I have friends who live their lives miniminally instead of their best. Oozing with potential, they bumble through life afraid to fail, afraid to live, or else too dumb to know the difference. Oh what I would do to shake the stupid out of them!
Grabbing their shoulders, I’d scream: “Dear God you’re so beautiful, amazing and brilliant, please don’t waste it! The world needs your talent! I need it! You need it!”
But I don’t do it.
Because I’ve watched myself bumble for the past year. Stupid myself, wavering unsure from one thing to another, I’ve wasted a year avoiding the truth. WELL I’M OVER THAT NOW.
I am terrified of dying young, having lived an unfulfilled life, but I was more terrified of making mistakes from being risky and audacious. Hence the lack of real action this past year. I want those around me to leave bad relationships, live dreams and be better people. Hypocritically, I haven’t done so myself. So I’m jumping off my own metaphorical cliff because I’d rather face change than continue to be something other than what I am and always wanted to be. My leaps will be more impactful than screaming and shaking those I love. People don’t need to shake the shit out of people to make them act. All that needs to be done is to take action yourself. Stepping it up and succeeding (which I will – watch me) will show those around me change can happen because the more you do it the less it hurts and if it never has, than you’ve never really lived.
(And to those in the know: Europe, I’m waiting for you.)
Good luck to you
“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” — Oscar Wilde
December 8th, 2009 at 6:51 pm“One life is all we have and we live it as we believe in living it. But to sacrifice what you are and to live without belief, that is a fate more terrible than dying.”
-Joan of Arc
December 9th, 2009 at 11:25 amI am generally more likely to be influenced by what people do, as opposed to what they say. Carpe Diem – it’s later than you think.
December 9th, 2009 at 2:36 pmHolte Ender´s last blog ..The Bill Of Rights Or Wrongs?
Holte!
Why is it though, that people say carpe diem and then when you actually seize the damn day everyone starts barking about your madness? As if, seize it, but do it between your day job and after watching an inspirational movie, but don’t actually do anything radical.
(Not that this applies to you, I’m just saying.)
December 9th, 2009 at 7:00 pmGood for you, sister! I have been doing the same thing for the last year and I finally kicked my dead beat boyfriend out of our apartment today. It felt good! Say goodbye to bad relationships!
December 10th, 2009 at 2:53 pmNicole – The way I look at ’seize the day’ is not to be radical with every second of every minute of all 24 hours, but more, within the day, certain moments need to be grabbed, appreciated, used for your betterment. Moments turn into minutes and into hours. It can become a serious habit.
December 10th, 2009 at 3:00 pmHolte Ender´s last blog ..FDR’s Second Bill Of Rights
Don’t regret the things you do just the things you don’t.
January 4th, 2010 at 2:11 pm