When Life Feels Craptastic
I’m sitting in my apartment wondering when this entrepreneurial risk will run it’s course. I have a fat lip from my puppy’s big, hard head bucking into my face and I’m fucking scared.
Is the road less traveled going to send me over a cliff?
I would love for this site to grow and influence and lead. I would love to help thousands of people. I know my limitations. I don’t have the means to cure diseases or invent life changing devices. Maybe I’m not fit to create something we’ll all buy one day, but the ones I impassion could.
What I’ve always done well is take phone calls, console and devise plans for others success. Showing other people what they’re good at. Leading people to a door and kicking their ass through it. I want to help people. It’s all I’ve ever been good at.
In Manhattan, this man came up to me, rambled with nerves, he stumbled to explain that he’d lost his metro and needed four dollars to get to Jersey. Holding the days paper and a sad look on his face, I couldn’t help but give him the money.
Afterwards I wondered:
Do I see more than is really there? Is my concern for others what holds me back from my own success?
Am I a fool for believing I’ll inspire anyone?
I feel like one. This dream to lead feels silly and ill-fated.
This post is meant for those who are having a down day. For those that struggle to believe they could. My little engine is on low today too. You’re not alone. We all have them. It’s a part of the human experience. And if you have chosen to take a path which offers no map, then know, I’m right here with you, struggling to decide which way to go.
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If you don’t know or can’t decide which way to go, be like Alice in Wonderland and ask a Cheshire Cat:
One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. Which road do I take? she asked. Where do you want to go? was his response. I don’t know, Alice answered. Then, said the cat, it doesn’t matter.”
The trick is, if you going through hell, keep going.
July 21st, 2009 at 1:35 amHolte Ender´s last blog ..Gomer Pyle (R) SC studies at C street
i just discovered your bolg a few day ago and I really like it, I think you can write and when you are describing from your own point of view a situation that someone else may have experience i believe you can inspire them by giving a fresh point of view to their situation.
For example I really liked the post aboyt “when your ex comes back”, cause I had a very similar expirience with a girl some weeks ago. I read your post and said. hey! thats true! the past needs to stay in the past and people does not change just because you want them to.
Anyway, i like your blog and i know a lot of people do, so keep doing what you are doing because i think is working.
Take care,
Gerson
July 21st, 2009 at 2:59 pmThanks guys. I appreciate it a lot.
July 21st, 2009 at 11:36 pmHey nicole. Sorry you’re down. Life can sometimes be like sailing. Either the sails are full, or you’re stuck in a dead calm. Just maintain a proper bearing and you’ll get there. But if it’s “leading” that you want to do, it’s not really a decision. You become a leader when you’re moving in a direction long before anyone else, and others decide to follow. Just be true to your heart. (And you DO make a difference. Even if you change just one life for the better, you’ve changed the world for the better.) Chin up, kiddo’.
July 23rd, 2009 at 1:17 am