Instinctual Acceptance and Job Dread
I truly dislike my job.
Like many Americans, it drains me of all my energy, leaving me empty and unfulfilled. I wake up and feel like I am showering with shackles. Facing the day with an invisible burden.
I’ve read the advice. Often scouring the Internet for some ingenious insights. I’ve blamed myself, my youth, and my grip on the past. I cried self-pityingly, disturbed by myself.
Over time I came to accept the structure, the corporate crap, the rules, the industry, the lack of ingenuity. I found peace with my situation. Battling my distaste wasn’t giving me anything but stomach cramps.
Despite this, each morning I still carry gratuitous weight. The knowing inside me that this just isn’t for me. That it’s just wrong.
Sometimes acceptance is the one thing we need to find, but sometimes all we really need is to accept what is true for us. That this (whatever it may be) just isn’t what we want.
Listen to your instincts, sometimes you don’t need to accept the situation. You just need to get the fuck out of it.
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Haha, amen. No kidding, that’s how I used to feel every morning. Heck, I still feel that way sometimes now, but I enjoy my job to a certain extent right now, so that’s ok.
But I can always strive for better
May 5th, 2008 at 3:12 pmI love your attitude.
I noticed on your blog you’re 17?
Man, find and do what you love. Let that be your only driver. I wish I had made that choice when I was about to go to college. I think I’d be in a different position now.
May 5th, 2008 at 3:21 pmThanks for the link, more great inspiration there.
May 9th, 2008 at 10:56 pmYour post reminds me of what Jen went through….http://jenyu.net/blog/2008/05/06/torta-di-ricotta/